Some of you asked if I have stopped writing.
Well, I did because I seemed to have lost my muse for a while. Though I have yet to find it, let me just do some catch up before I get a little rusty. I will simply run through the events that I had missed out.
Happy Birthday Jan Babies
Within the extended family network, there are about 8 of us who celebrate our birthdays in January (and this does not include my cousins). Anyway, it has been a tradition for me to hold the mass celebration at my place (even a small gathering means at least 30 people...a great time to save on cake (hahaha) and splurge on presents. Yes...thank you all for the mini notebook...I love it.
Happy Birthday Abah
I love you so much Daddy...you are the best father in the world. I pray that Allah bless you with good health and a meaningful happy life...I can never be able to repay you for raising me right...
Happy Birthday Abang, My Love
Thank you for being my supportive Significant Other. I am grateful that God has bound our fates together...Thank you for being my friend and my guide.
Happy Birthday, Akmal.
My youngest baby ... is no longer a baby. You are 11 this year...and pretty soon...you will be a teen. I hope you will never be too old for cuddles and tickle monsters...Mama loves you to bits.
Many other things happened too during the course of the week; some good...others...challenging. Each new day brings forth new obstacles; some small, some ...insurmountable.
But one of the most important lesson I have been shown is that...if you do good to others, good will eventually come to you. I am not going to be take the credit in my helping others. I do things that I feel is right, and do not expect anything in return.
But I have been shown how good others are.
My friends...whose support have been unwavering, and their attempts to help me up again
My kids at home and school...for believing in me
My mentor...for the support
and of course...a friend who went out of his way to do a personal favour to try to help my son.
And to those whom I call my own...
Stay strong, and be ready to face the next phase of your lives. Things will get more exciting, and just as frustrating too. Learn to hold your head up high, for you are special and unique.
And to Namira,
I never got to thank you for spending the day with us last Saturday. I am glad I got to know you, and hope to be able to get to know you better. I hope you enjoyed yourself despite the noise and chaos. Congrats on getting a place in MJ.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Monday, January 26, 2009
Ripples in the Water
I think the best illustration for the point I want to make today is this. Pick up a piece of stone and fling it into the water. It is called Stone Skimming. The test of your strength and perhaps skill, lies in the ability to make that stone 'jump' a few times before it finally sinks. But what I am interested in is the ripples in the water.
Physics can explain why the stone causes the rippling effect, and why the stone jumps. It has to do with weight,angles, buoyancy, equilibrium and exchange of both kinetic and potential energies. Physics however, is not quite my forte. I just want to transfer the analogy to something bigger.
At any point of our lives, we experience ripples (though for some, it seems like we are are constantly washed over by tsunamis instead). When a force, no matter how big or small, strikes at us, we feel the effects. Our sense of equilibrium is upset, and we continue to find our balance somehow...or else we will never be at ease.
Sometimes too, we are the ones who 'throw the stones'. We upset the calm. We are the ones who create the impetus for the change of state and create that chain reaction. Without a doubt, there is an impactful cause and effect relationship which cannot be avoided. What more, when that stone creates the multiplier effect.
How aware are we, of the consequences of our own actions? How much do we care about how others feel? More importantly...as the 'stone' or 'water'...what do we do when we find ourselves in this situation? (sorry to really stretch this analogy so much)
To my little adik who reads this:
I can fully empathise your situation. All you want is for the pond to be calm and still again. Yet someone keeps throwing the stones over and over again. For you, the effect is rather turbulent, and the ripples are gaining such momentum that the water will spill over the banks.
Perhaps, the only way now, to find an inner peace, is to stop more stones being flung. I know that will be a very difficult decision. I know you have been seeking for answers, and have realised that in life, there are a lot of things which cannot be answered, nor can we even come close to comprehend fully.
Have faith in God, and in yourself. Someone once said that "Faith is trusting in advance what will only make sense in reverse. Faith draws poison from every grief, takes the sting from every loss, and quenches the fire of every pain; and only faith can do it."
Do not lose your spirit. Whatever decision you make, I'll be around...whether beside to hold your hand...behind, to support...or ahead...to gently lead you.
I believe you will be able
To L:
I keep referring to you as the lost sheep...but then again, maybe you are not as 'lost' as I think you are. While my rationality is flummoxed by your decision, deep down, I admire the tenacity you display to go after what you really really really want.
You have showed me that when you truly believe, you will have something to live for.
To the person who reads this, and knows who you are:
I am going to stop throwing stones.
My intentions were sincere...for I had wanted to really 'shake you' so that yours will have a positive multiplier effect. Ripples can do a lot of good too. I had acted on faith, on a belief that I could somehow help you find the key to unlock your potential. It was not blind faith that prompted that decision; it was really made on an unwavering belief in you.
However, it seems that I am doing more harm than good.
And I guess, the ripples it created have both the backsplash, and backlash on me.
So as long as you feel the way you do right now, the albatross hangs on my back too. And it will be hung...as a symbol of ......failure.
I know you will never accept the apology...but I hope you will understand. Do also remember how the ripples in the other ponds all affect me. I get it left, right and centre...
Unlike with my little adik, where I know where to stand...I am really uncertain what to do now for I neither lead nor guide. Perhaps moving far behind would be best, at the moment...
To the rest:
The ripple in the water analogy is actually something quite beautiful. If we can a positive change in this world, we need to be the agent of change...in the right way.
Hope you like this link.
www.link4u.com/new4/index
Physics can explain why the stone causes the rippling effect, and why the stone jumps. It has to do with weight,angles, buoyancy, equilibrium and exchange of both kinetic and potential energies. Physics however, is not quite my forte. I just want to transfer the analogy to something bigger.
At any point of our lives, we experience ripples (though for some, it seems like we are are constantly washed over by tsunamis instead). When a force, no matter how big or small, strikes at us, we feel the effects. Our sense of equilibrium is upset, and we continue to find our balance somehow...or else we will never be at ease.
Sometimes too, we are the ones who 'throw the stones'. We upset the calm. We are the ones who create the impetus for the change of state and create that chain reaction. Without a doubt, there is an impactful cause and effect relationship which cannot be avoided. What more, when that stone creates the multiplier effect.
How aware are we, of the consequences of our own actions? How much do we care about how others feel? More importantly...as the 'stone' or 'water'...what do we do when we find ourselves in this situation? (sorry to really stretch this analogy so much)
To my little adik who reads this:
I can fully empathise your situation. All you want is for the pond to be calm and still again. Yet someone keeps throwing the stones over and over again. For you, the effect is rather turbulent, and the ripples are gaining such momentum that the water will spill over the banks.
Perhaps, the only way now, to find an inner peace, is to stop more stones being flung. I know that will be a very difficult decision. I know you have been seeking for answers, and have realised that in life, there are a lot of things which cannot be answered, nor can we even come close to comprehend fully.
Have faith in God, and in yourself. Someone once said that "Faith is trusting in advance what will only make sense in reverse. Faith draws poison from every grief, takes the sting from every loss, and quenches the fire of every pain; and only faith can do it."
Do not lose your spirit. Whatever decision you make, I'll be around...whether beside to hold your hand...behind, to support...or ahead...to gently lead you.
I believe you will be able
To L:
I keep referring to you as the lost sheep...but then again, maybe you are not as 'lost' as I think you are. While my rationality is flummoxed by your decision, deep down, I admire the tenacity you display to go after what you really really really want.
You have showed me that when you truly believe, you will have something to live for.
To the person who reads this, and knows who you are:
I am going to stop throwing stones.
My intentions were sincere...for I had wanted to really 'shake you' so that yours will have a positive multiplier effect. Ripples can do a lot of good too. I had acted on faith, on a belief that I could somehow help you find the key to unlock your potential. It was not blind faith that prompted that decision; it was really made on an unwavering belief in you.
However, it seems that I am doing more harm than good.
And I guess, the ripples it created have both the backsplash, and backlash on me.
So as long as you feel the way you do right now, the albatross hangs on my back too. And it will be hung...as a symbol of ......failure.
I know you will never accept the apology...but I hope you will understand. Do also remember how the ripples in the other ponds all affect me. I get it left, right and centre...
Unlike with my little adik, where I know where to stand...I am really uncertain what to do now for I neither lead nor guide. Perhaps moving far behind would be best, at the moment...
To the rest:
The ripple in the water analogy is actually something quite beautiful. If we can a positive change in this world, we need to be the agent of change...in the right way.
Hope you like this link.
www.link4u.com/new4/index
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Random Questions: Dazed Mum Part II
I think there are some people in the world who take perverse pleasure in making other people suffer. They have so much time on their hands, and instead of twiddling thumbs, they create all kinds of random surveys to stump, befog, befuddle, stupendy (nah...that's too intelligent)and stupidify(?) people who under normal circumstances ,have some amount of workng grey matter.
But...since I am in the mood to do mindless things, here I am again, humouring those who tagged me because of their insatiable curiosity about my idiosyncrasies..[I only do this when my brain is drowsy from drugs] Again, I shall put it into context so that should I ever be taken away in a straightjacket one day, you know the reason why.
Here goes:
1. I found the deep-rooted cause of why I can never pass A Maths - especially probability, combination and permutation. What are the chances of me sweeping under the kids' beds and finding a pair of socks that match? Answer: ZERO!..5 different coloured and sizes socks...1 power ranger underpants (outgrown by about 2 years)..1 hello kitty hair clip...1 lollypop, 1 live cat...(you get the idea)
2. I agree wholeheartedly with Milton Berle who asks this most pertinent question: If there is really such a thing as evolution, why is it that mothers still have 2 hands? Honestly, there are times when my children (hubby included) who seem to think that I am part octopus.
3. I own a king-sized bed but have only 1/4 of all that space to sleep on. The reason? The bed is a refugee haven..from the two-legged ones to the furry four-legged creatures. Puhlez...just because my tummy is soft and flabby, it is not(!) a place to be slept on.
4. Oh...Erma Bombeck once said that "Insanity is hereditary. You get it from your kids!" Kekekeke...My children definitely passed their spontaneous, crazy, absurd, ludricrous and sometimes deranged characteristics to poor me when I least suspect it. (I do not care how interesting that video clip is on youtube...No! you do not spin dry the cat in the washing machine!)
5. As a mother, I have learnt that you will perpetually be sleep deprived until all the children leave the the nest.[see number three]...I can identify things that go bang in the night, when the fridge is being raided, and fall victim to handphones which are screechy enough to wake the dead except their owners. Why don't the children ever listen when I warn them not to watch horror films? Wake me up again when I have just fallen asleep..and I will personally haunt you in your dreams.
6. I am still figuring out why the child who talks and chatters endlessly, and is always eager to please turns into a piece of driftwood with the onset of the teenage years. Please understand that while did phonetics 101...I am not able to understand grunts, moans and whines. And..."Whatever"...does not exist in my vocabulary.
7. I have finally learnt to accept the white hair on my head...I shall consider each new strand as a motherhood medal of courage...since the contributors to my stress level going up are the kids themselves.
8. On days when my patience draws thin,I fully understand why some animals eat their young. Hehehehe...close...very, very close.
9. Though my ears are covered most of the time, I have the uncanny ability to pick up whenever a toot word is being uttered, or when an unsavoury remark is passed (thank you God...I may be going deaf from all the noise, but my ears are bionic when necessary)
10. My all time favourite wish is for the greatest invention to come for all mothers in future, It is a tracking device that can be implanted into all babies when they are born. The device will be able to send regular alerts like a) alive and kicking b) up to no-good and c) oops...he/she did again (be prepared for cardiac arrest!)
I realise that I am not the only harried mum...below are some funny imaginary quotes from mothers of famous people. Credits to http://www.scribd.com/doc/3246162/FAMOUS-MOTHERS-VERY-FUNNY
Michangelo's Mum
"Why can't you paint the walls like other children? Do you know who difficult it is to get the stuff off the ceiling?"
Columbus's Mum
"I do not care if you have discovered the world. The least you could have done is call home."
Edison's Mum
"Of course I am proud that you invented the electric light bulb. Now switch it off and go to sleep."
Please...please avoid tagging me unless it is absolutely necessary ok?...
and...to all my kids out there...Gong Xi Fa Cai
But...since I am in the mood to do mindless things, here I am again, humouring those who tagged me because of their insatiable curiosity about my idiosyncrasies..[I only do this when my brain is drowsy from drugs] Again, I shall put it into context so that should I ever be taken away in a straightjacket one day, you know the reason why.
Here goes:
1. I found the deep-rooted cause of why I can never pass A Maths - especially probability, combination and permutation. What are the chances of me sweeping under the kids' beds and finding a pair of socks that match? Answer: ZERO!..5 different coloured and sizes socks...1 power ranger underpants (outgrown by about 2 years)..1 hello kitty hair clip...1 lollypop, 1 live cat...(you get the idea)
2. I agree wholeheartedly with Milton Berle who asks this most pertinent question: If there is really such a thing as evolution, why is it that mothers still have 2 hands? Honestly, there are times when my children (hubby included) who seem to think that I am part octopus.
3. I own a king-sized bed but have only 1/4 of all that space to sleep on. The reason? The bed is a refugee haven..from the two-legged ones to the furry four-legged creatures. Puhlez...just because my tummy is soft and flabby, it is not(!) a place to be slept on.
4. Oh...Erma Bombeck once said that "Insanity is hereditary. You get it from your kids!" Kekekeke...My children definitely passed their spontaneous, crazy, absurd, ludricrous and sometimes deranged characteristics to poor me when I least suspect it. (I do not care how interesting that video clip is on youtube...No! you do not spin dry the cat in the washing machine!)
5. As a mother, I have learnt that you will perpetually be sleep deprived until all the children leave the the nest.[see number three]...I can identify things that go bang in the night, when the fridge is being raided, and fall victim to handphones which are screechy enough to wake the dead except their owners. Why don't the children ever listen when I warn them not to watch horror films? Wake me up again when I have just fallen asleep..and I will personally haunt you in your dreams.
6. I am still figuring out why the child who talks and chatters endlessly, and is always eager to please turns into a piece of driftwood with the onset of the teenage years. Please understand that while did phonetics 101...I am not able to understand grunts, moans and whines. And..."Whatever"...does not exist in my vocabulary.
7. I have finally learnt to accept the white hair on my head...I shall consider each new strand as a motherhood medal of courage...since the contributors to my stress level going up are the kids themselves.
8. On days when my patience draws thin,I fully understand why some animals eat their young. Hehehehe...close...very, very close.
9. Though my ears are covered most of the time, I have the uncanny ability to pick up whenever a toot word is being uttered, or when an unsavoury remark is passed (thank you God...I may be going deaf from all the noise, but my ears are bionic when necessary)
10. My all time favourite wish is for the greatest invention to come for all mothers in future, It is a tracking device that can be implanted into all babies when they are born. The device will be able to send regular alerts like a) alive and kicking b) up to no-good and c) oops...he/she did again (be prepared for cardiac arrest!)
I realise that I am not the only harried mum...below are some funny imaginary quotes from mothers of famous people. Credits to http://www.scribd.com/doc/3246162/FAMOUS-MOTHERS-VERY-FUNNY
Michangelo's Mum
"Why can't you paint the walls like other children? Do you know who difficult it is to get the stuff off the ceiling?"
Columbus's Mum
"I do not care if you have discovered the world. The least you could have done is call home."
Edison's Mum
"Of course I am proud that you invented the electric light bulb. Now switch it off and go to sleep."
Please...please avoid tagging me unless it is absolutely necessary ok?...
and...to all my kids out there...Gong Xi Fa Cai
Saturday, January 24, 2009
When The Going Gets Tough
My dearest children
I write this in the spirit of what our PM said in his CNY message to all Singaporeans. We are facing tough times...and I do want you to understand the seriousness of the situation.
You have had it easy...You have a roof over your heads, and you have your meals and clothes, and more. Sometimes, Mama thinks that we over-indulge...because you never know what it is like to be truly hungry, to be cold, and to be homeless. I pray that God will always protect you from those sufferings.
But I wonder...
Have my need to protect and shelter you left you unprepared for the real challenges in life? Have I raised you to be resilient and resourceful? In this day and age, where it seems that vices prevail over virtues, have I imparted the core skills that you will need?
Do remember the 3 Rules which I want you to hold on to.
1. Look after yourself.
Love yourself...for when you do, you will always want to be the best human possible...who is directed by moral values and a strong sense of 'iman'. You will keep your feet firmly on the ground, and remain unshaken when you face the trials and tribulations in life.
2. Look after each other
Draw your strength from your family. When the going gets tough, close ranks and stand united. As cliched as it may be, think of the bunch of sticks that cannot be bent and broken when they are tied as a bunch.
3. Look after the larger community.
I think that there is much to be said about this...(which I will pick up at a later date)
I want to talk about family and friends.
"The family s the most important raft in the times of crisis' PM Lee.
We, so far, have been very lucky. Abah & Mama are still economically viable, and we will be able to see that you get your needs met...Needs, and not wants!...Wants are things that you will have to work hard for.
Maybe there will be some good coming out from this unstable, difficult times...when once greed, self-satisfaction and materialism once ruled ... maybe now, people will be able to evaluate what they really need in life. Especially those who pursue 'the good life' only...and not a care about others.
I am thankful that your abah and I were guided by God...not to lose sight of what makes our lives meaningful...it is you...our children...and of course...through the course of the years...the other 'children' we have met and grown to love. You will never be alone...for you have each other...
The road ahead is long, unwinding, and probably rocky at many stages. But do persevere...and push, or pull each other along. Share in each other's success, and provide comfort and support when one is down.
You can't choose family, but you can choose friends...I hope you know who they are...for they are just as important. Make your family your friends too, and turn to them for advice and counsel. I also hope that the bigger circle of 'kids' I have, will be able to be your 'big brothers and sisters' who will be able to be people you can depend on too someday.
We will face the challenge, and I believe, we as a family, will emerge stronger. Insyaallah.
Love
Mama
I write this in the spirit of what our PM said in his CNY message to all Singaporeans. We are facing tough times...and I do want you to understand the seriousness of the situation.
You have had it easy...You have a roof over your heads, and you have your meals and clothes, and more. Sometimes, Mama thinks that we over-indulge...because you never know what it is like to be truly hungry, to be cold, and to be homeless. I pray that God will always protect you from those sufferings.
But I wonder...
Have my need to protect and shelter you left you unprepared for the real challenges in life? Have I raised you to be resilient and resourceful? In this day and age, where it seems that vices prevail over virtues, have I imparted the core skills that you will need?
Do remember the 3 Rules which I want you to hold on to.
1. Look after yourself.
Love yourself...for when you do, you will always want to be the best human possible...who is directed by moral values and a strong sense of 'iman'. You will keep your feet firmly on the ground, and remain unshaken when you face the trials and tribulations in life.
2. Look after each other
Draw your strength from your family. When the going gets tough, close ranks and stand united. As cliched as it may be, think of the bunch of sticks that cannot be bent and broken when they are tied as a bunch.
3. Look after the larger community.
I think that there is much to be said about this...(which I will pick up at a later date)
I want to talk about family and friends.
"The family s the most important raft in the times of crisis' PM Lee.
We, so far, have been very lucky. Abah & Mama are still economically viable, and we will be able to see that you get your needs met...Needs, and not wants!...Wants are things that you will have to work hard for.
Maybe there will be some good coming out from this unstable, difficult times...when once greed, self-satisfaction and materialism once ruled ... maybe now, people will be able to evaluate what they really need in life. Especially those who pursue 'the good life' only...and not a care about others.
I am thankful that your abah and I were guided by God...not to lose sight of what makes our lives meaningful...it is you...our children...and of course...through the course of the years...the other 'children' we have met and grown to love. You will never be alone...for you have each other...
The road ahead is long, unwinding, and probably rocky at many stages. But do persevere...and push, or pull each other along. Share in each other's success, and provide comfort and support when one is down.
You can't choose family, but you can choose friends...I hope you know who they are...for they are just as important. Make your family your friends too, and turn to them for advice and counsel. I also hope that the bigger circle of 'kids' I have, will be able to be your 'big brothers and sisters' who will be able to be people you can depend on too someday.
We will face the challenge, and I believe, we as a family, will emerge stronger. Insyaallah.
Love
Mama
Friday, January 23, 2009
Home...where the heart should be...
It has been a good day...to touch base with friends and family, and my many children. I had a good laugh with C, and was glad to see E's sense of humour growing.( smile more please). Of course, there was lunch with Sky, and Akmal...and when I came home, my big boy was home after being away for three days. And in the evening, I was surrounded by the endless exchange of corny jokes between Akmal and Iffah...ah, at this point, life is bliss.
All the money in the world cannot buy the special moments I have had with those who mean a lot to me. And I am warmed and comforted in the knowledge that I have a large, loving family.
While I count my blessings, I also realise that there are some out there who are not as fortunate...to feel the way I do.
But let me share with you a secret...I think I feel gratified because I think I work hard at building relationships. I guess I believe that love is something that should be unconditional...give willingly, and expect nothing in return. But so far, I feel I am the one who has gotten so much.
And in the spirit of the coming festivity, I make an appeal to all...to put aside the negative emotions, to be forgiving, and keep on building bridges. Your family...your friends...your parents, your children....are really worth your time, and love.
Here's a clip to help you remember why.
Even if the I am not able to link you to the site...please watch the Petronas ads...that deal a lot with family values. Let me tell you that it will be worth your while.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqDdhloTLM4
All the money in the world cannot buy the special moments I have had with those who mean a lot to me. And I am warmed and comforted in the knowledge that I have a large, loving family.
While I count my blessings, I also realise that there are some out there who are not as fortunate...to feel the way I do.
But let me share with you a secret...I think I feel gratified because I think I work hard at building relationships. I guess I believe that love is something that should be unconditional...give willingly, and expect nothing in return. But so far, I feel I am the one who has gotten so much.
And in the spirit of the coming festivity, I make an appeal to all...to put aside the negative emotions, to be forgiving, and keep on building bridges. Your family...your friends...your parents, your children....are really worth your time, and love.
Here's a clip to help you remember why.
Even if the I am not able to link you to the site...please watch the Petronas ads...that deal a lot with family values. Let me tell you that it will be worth your while.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqDdhloTLM4
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Don't Sell Yourself Short
These past two weeks, I took the kids in school on a journey on self-discovery...though I really wonder how many of them realised this fact. Many would have thought that it was just some language exercise they had to do, from writing testimonials, to finding out a whole range of new words that could use to describe people...and more importantly, themselves.
I really wanted them to make the connection between the things they are doing now, with what may happen to them in the 'real world'. My question to them is this...If you can't 'sell' yourself, how could you expect others to do it for you?
It is not about boasting, nor arrogance. Neither is it about self-glorification. It has a lot to do with one's level of confidence and self-assurance.
You really know yourself, and how to position your strengths. It is not about what you think you cannot do...it is more about how you acknowledge your weaknesses and flaws...and the steps you take to overcome them.
It's funny how we sometimes put a ceiling on our abilities...we think we are not capable of achieving something, and sooner or later, that becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
"I think I cannot...thus I don't...and soon I really can't.." Why?
It takes hard work to hone in your skills...to be good at what you do. But alas, in a age of instant gratification, we do not allow ourselves the time, and space to sharpen and develop our talents; and thus we feel dishearten quite easily, and become envious of others...whom we think are more clever, more beautiful, more ______(fill in the blanks)...but really?
Learn to believe in yourself..in your gifts...in your own capabilities. The 'comparison game' is out there true..but it is for you to set a benchmark or a target to reach...not to wallow in self-pity or envy when we think we cannot get within our grasp...
I do hope that you have been able to discover yourself these past few days. I know I have...and I am also learning a lot more about how I want to go about finding my dreams again.
I really hope you dance ...(and not just in your dreams, like me)
I really wanted them to make the connection between the things they are doing now, with what may happen to them in the 'real world'. My question to them is this...If you can't 'sell' yourself, how could you expect others to do it for you?
It is not about boasting, nor arrogance. Neither is it about self-glorification. It has a lot to do with one's level of confidence and self-assurance.
You really know yourself, and how to position your strengths. It is not about what you think you cannot do...it is more about how you acknowledge your weaknesses and flaws...and the steps you take to overcome them.
It's funny how we sometimes put a ceiling on our abilities...we think we are not capable of achieving something, and sooner or later, that becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
"I think I cannot...thus I don't...and soon I really can't.." Why?
It takes hard work to hone in your skills...to be good at what you do. But alas, in a age of instant gratification, we do not allow ourselves the time, and space to sharpen and develop our talents; and thus we feel dishearten quite easily, and become envious of others...whom we think are more clever, more beautiful, more ______(fill in the blanks)...but really?
Learn to believe in yourself..in your gifts...in your own capabilities. The 'comparison game' is out there true..but it is for you to set a benchmark or a target to reach...not to wallow in self-pity or envy when we think we cannot get within our grasp...
I do hope that you have been able to discover yourself these past few days. I know I have...and I am also learning a lot more about how I want to go about finding my dreams again.
I really hope you dance ...(and not just in your dreams, like me)
Monday, January 19, 2009
When One Door Closes,...another opens
Wow...wow...wow...
It has been a truly blessed day.
From the steady stream of smses on the handphone, to the big hugs at home, the flowers on the table (thanks ladies), the song in class (haha 4e1), the cake (Naz, Nisa & Rin)...and the long list of heartwarming messages on Facebook. Of course more cakes at home...and more chocolates coming my way.
Things happen for a reason.
How different my mood is now, compared to the feeling I had when I fell into the deep abyss last Monday. While there remains a tinge of sadness, and regrets...I realise how much strength I can draw from those who rally around me.
I may be on my way to leaving a deathbed legacy...in the idea of how so many of the kids out there have grown from strength to strength.
A special note to Namira...if I can borrow this phrase.."Positive reinvention"...those who dare to dream...and believe...and look for good and hope...will be able to pick themselves up faster. Thank you sweetiee, for alerting me to this.
Dear God...on this day...thank you for making me feel special...in your protection, and all those whom I love.
The one who lost the way...find the right door home...
It has been a truly blessed day.
From the steady stream of smses on the handphone, to the big hugs at home, the flowers on the table (thanks ladies), the song in class (haha 4e1), the cake (Naz, Nisa & Rin)...and the long list of heartwarming messages on Facebook. Of course more cakes at home...and more chocolates coming my way.
Things happen for a reason.
How different my mood is now, compared to the feeling I had when I fell into the deep abyss last Monday. While there remains a tinge of sadness, and regrets...I realise how much strength I can draw from those who rally around me.
I may be on my way to leaving a deathbed legacy...in the idea of how so many of the kids out there have grown from strength to strength.
A special note to Namira...if I can borrow this phrase.."Positive reinvention"...those who dare to dream...and believe...and look for good and hope...will be able to pick themselves up faster. Thank you sweetiee, for alerting me to this.
Dear God...on this day...thank you for making me feel special...in your protection, and all those whom I love.
The one who lost the way...find the right door home...
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