On a wing and a prayer

Dear Child,

It has taken me a while to pen the right words to write this to you. I am not even sure that these are even the appropriate things to say. But tell to you I must.

It is a time of change...
Who changed, what changed, why things have changed...I think those things are secondary. But the main thing is I wonder if you realise how much you have changed.

Are those changes good or bad? I don't really know.
Since I have been saying that nothing remains the same forever, I should then be able to embrace the shifts in your perceptions and self-beliefs. It means you are growing...questioning...thinking...reflecting.

You assert your independence, you make known your stand. You challenge certain mindsets. At times it feels as though you found your wings...all set to fly just by the passion of the spirit. But then...there are also days...when I seriously doubt your readiness.

New knowledge gained...does not immediately equate with wisdom. That will come with experience and in some cases, the school of 'hard knocks'. When you realise that in life, the journey is rarely smooth, where the trials and tribulations that life has to offer leaves you wondering a lot about yourself at times. Beliefs get shaken too...and values are questioned...over and over again.

I know that you are thing to find yourself...trying to find your way to the things that you value. But in the process, there are times when self-doubts set in...and it reins you in. But most of the time...it is the internal monologue within you that can be critical and harsh...as the focus is on the self-judgement. Self-evaluation ia bench-marked by the high standards of expectation that is set upon by the self.

Change is really something very hard, but not insurmountable.
The restlessness...the sense of uneasiness are things which are to be expected.The dilemmas faced will leave many unanswered questions.

I don't have the answers...I believe God is the only one who does.
So keep that spirit up...as your quests take you through many uncharted territories.
Let your internal compass keep you focused, and lead the way to where you want to go.

God...bless this child.
My prayers go with you.