And The Owl Goes ".......

I'm up again...
While it may be normal for some people to be wide awake, this is definitely not what I need. So before I have another surreal encounter where I try to psyche my brain to allow me to go back to Lala Land, I might as well pen my thoughts now.

It is so quiet...except for the humming of my aircon,which is more than 15 years old. I should change it, for at times, the old condesing unit hums like an old motor boat. But the ears are so attuned to it that my usually ultra-sensitive hearing has somehow blocked it out.

The entire family is asleep...all of us ,including the cats. Ya, strange as it is to some, the holidays will find the kids and katz (that's what I call my 4-legged ones)all comfortably camped in their nooks and crannies in my room. If there is a place where we can unwind or 'lepak' (in Malay),yup, this is it. Even the animals have staked out their indivdual spots (ya...like my side of the bed!)

Gosh, the room is old and shabby...and at times, can resemble a war zone.
I never quite got qround to renovating the upper part of the house...save for stripping the wall papers and giving it a new coat of paint years ago. The money was always spent on other priorities like the children and investments for the future.

I know that someday, if I need to, I may have to sell this place and move to somewhere smaller...if we ever need to finance the children' future education. That is the intention when we first moved...years ago when Akmal was barely a month old. I know that a greater part of his memories will be tied to this place...so as the others. This is where they have grown up.

So in many ways, I am gratified by one thought.
A house is simply a structure..four walls that provides you shelter.
It is the people, the memories of good (and tough) times that will turn it into a home.

As cheesy as this sounds, I am glad...I have a happy home.

God,
I thank you for all the blessings you have showered on my family.
We are grateful that our lives are simple yet comfortable.
Help us to keep on strengthening our love for one another, for our extended families, and those whom we have embraced as part of our lives.
Keep filling this home with faith, hope, joy and laughter...with fortitude and an indomitable spirit...
Ameen.

I feel at peace.