Things happen for a reason

No excuses.
I am going to start to write again. Though now, it is hard to express all the many thoughts and feelings that are stuck in my brain.

I close my eyes, and sometimes, I see colours. Globs of light interplaying with my random thoughts. Or when I come close to some people, sparks of light flash across. Then there are those, whose light are so faint, or too dark for me to fathom. Don't ask me why...I just know they are there.

I start with those whose colours are bright lately.
KC - who fears and uncertainties are there. But the joy...such great joy at being at such an esteemed place will help conquer. Remember, you are there, because you earned that right.

Blue butterfly: - You project a rainbow
No one has much colour as you, or intense pure light. You know your purpose..you remained through to yourself and HIM. I can only learn; so much from your sincerity and faith. I am humbled my friend, and so ashamed of how little I do, compared to you. Yet you flit...you never stay long enough for people to clip those wings.

Sky - in thunder, lightning and in rain...I feel you the strongest.
Be it even in sunshine. You have learnt to pick up mine too. It's pretty confusing sometimes when sun rays meet thunderbolts...and I prefer to think of it as yin and yang.

Blaque: Time has certainly mellowed my spirited one. You have remained green for a long time now, and that is so comforting.

Yan: My nemesis...now, my friend. Ya..ya..you're right. Some FB status are meant for you. You know how to decipher them.

Spiderman: Tingling senses again? hahaha...your 'gifts', use them wisely my child. For they should serve as warnings to you too, instead of just for others.

Gusti:...my friend. Our conversation about why things happen for a reason (be it known or unknown) helped me to piece so many puzzling pieces together. I still do not understand, I still am very much afraid. But I will learn...haha...20 years to solve a riddle? Do I have that long?

Finally
AB: who lately unwittingly put me through a series of roller-coaster rides.Maybe that is why you do not feel anything...cos someone else does the feeling for you(?!) But colours...if you can find my old entry last year...find the one that says..."the colours I see around you has faded"...this time round...it's blue...
Anyway...you are the special child...and confusion is part of the mystery that I have come to accept.

I hope it is not too random for you to understand.
Maybe it is just me.
But hey, writing again. And that is a relief.

Head Held High :What You Got Here, Won't Get You There...

For the past few days, I never seem to be able to complete the things that I set out to do. Updating this blog is one good example. The easiest excuse is that there are just too many things to do. But hey, it is a matter of choice.

Today, despite the loads of exam papers that have come in, I decided to put aside some time to write. I am going to reflect on some things that I have read in the book with the above title.

We all know what the phrase alludes to.
If I were to ask myself this, "Where are am I now?", or "Have I arrived?" I wonder if I will be able to answer that immediately. How come there is the hesitation?

I do wish that sometimes I have a built-in GPS system...one that will navigate me directly towards the end point. So far, I have relied on my own internal compass, and thank god, I have managed to find my way through.

Maybe the more pertinent question should be, "Hey...where do I want to go next? How do I get THERE...and how will I know when I am THERE?
Quite often, the root cause of uncertainties come when we are not sure what "THERE" looks like. If we cannot visualise the destination, we will find ourselves constantly getting lost.

The next stage of "THERE" is slowly becoming clear. I have thought things through, and find that I want to be doing that job five years down the road. But before I uproot myself for that journey, I need to make sure that I am prepared for it.