Things happen for a reason

No excuses.
I am going to start to write again. Though now, it is hard to express all the many thoughts and feelings that are stuck in my brain.

I close my eyes, and sometimes, I see colours. Globs of light interplaying with my random thoughts. Or when I come close to some people, sparks of light flash across. Then there are those, whose light are so faint, or too dark for me to fathom. Don't ask me why...I just know they are there.

I start with those whose colours are bright lately.
KC - who fears and uncertainties are there. But the joy...such great joy at being at such an esteemed place will help conquer. Remember, you are there, because you earned that right.

Blue butterfly: - You project a rainbow
No one has much colour as you, or intense pure light. You know your purpose..you remained through to yourself and HIM. I can only learn; so much from your sincerity and faith. I am humbled my friend, and so ashamed of how little I do, compared to you. Yet you flit...you never stay long enough for people to clip those wings.

Sky - in thunder, lightning and in rain...I feel you the strongest.
Be it even in sunshine. You have learnt to pick up mine too. It's pretty confusing sometimes when sun rays meet thunderbolts...and I prefer to think of it as yin and yang.

Blaque: Time has certainly mellowed my spirited one. You have remained green for a long time now, and that is so comforting.

Yan: My nemesis...now, my friend. Ya..ya..you're right. Some FB status are meant for you. You know how to decipher them.

Spiderman: Tingling senses again? hahaha...your 'gifts', use them wisely my child. For they should serve as warnings to you too, instead of just for others.

Gusti:...my friend. Our conversation about why things happen for a reason (be it known or unknown) helped me to piece so many puzzling pieces together. I still do not understand, I still am very much afraid. But I will learn...haha...20 years to solve a riddle? Do I have that long?

Finally
AB: who lately unwittingly put me through a series of roller-coaster rides.Maybe that is why you do not feel anything...cos someone else does the feeling for you(?!) But colours...if you can find my old entry last year...find the one that says..."the colours I see around you has faded"...this time round...it's blue...
Anyway...you are the special child...and confusion is part of the mystery that I have come to accept.

I hope it is not too random for you to understand.
Maybe it is just me.
But hey, writing again. And that is a relief.