Lessons from the past

Today, I had to take stock of my own actions again.
Each year, the release of the exam results will be a day when I go on a wild emotional roller-coaster ride.
Each time, I feel the need to hang on tightly to my sanity as I stand up and be counted.

The hardest part of the job I do is standing up and admitting my accountability for the overall results.  This is something that you cannot run away from.  No matter how much one tries to find excuses, or push the blame, or dig up reasons, the fact is that someone got to be the one responsible.

It's not a blame game.
It's taking stock of how much I am liable for the events that have  unfolded.
I need to remember that while collectively, the impression of the results is not too bad; to some of my kids, each grade matters.

It's not a time for regrets.
It is so much easier to say "if only..." or "I should have.."
It's a time to decide how best to move on forward.

I may or may not have done my best.
I will learn to improve, and work on areas of concern.

Stand up....and be counted.
I do hope however, that by stepping back, I am doing the right thing.

Lessons that I have learnt...
I am not good enough...
Let someone else help them.