Negative Power and why it attracts

Complain & whine...moan and groan.
It seems so much easier to be pessimistic and helpless rather than be buoyed by good feelings.
Negative thinking is so notoriously inaccurate, exaggerated and severe...but oh don't we love to be swept by our sense of self-tragedy?

I know I have made a lot of mistakes, and I am fundamentally flawed (see..I told you it was easy).
But I question myself for not making the effort to make it a point to learn from my mistakes and bounce back.
I fall into the trap of making the same errors again and sometimes going "Why am I so stupid? Real duh!"
These messages perpetuate and become so ingrained in my head that I tend to believe I am such. Sigh

With age, comes wisdom ...(ahahaha...oops)
I am supposed to be wiser.  Yet the experiences of the past has left me with some sense of cynicism.
Yes, I can blame it on the impending M when I find my irritation quotion rising. Why do I seem so naggy and anal lately?

I am still seeking answers.
But step 1 today...be nice to myself, and to others.
Find something positive to do, say and think about.
If I need to make a difference, then I will start with me.

Dee...you can do it. You will....Insyaallah