I am back to reading Maxwell again...this time his latest "Go for Gold". I really like his stuff. If I feel myself going on the downward spiral, I'll curl up in bed with a good read.

Here are some of my takes on the simple things that make life more bearable. Maxwell talks about something he calls "Disciplined Emotions". People have just two choices when it comes to their emotions: Master them or be mastered by them.

Which category do you belong to?
I know on the surface, I tend to look unfazed, and wise...(oh well, at least I try to)on most occasions. I realise that should I wear my heart on my sleeve, I am more vulnerable than I already am. I cannot afford that.

Maybe this is the cynic in me talking. I do not think I put on a smokescreen, but my facade has been built on years on really putting my real emotions under control. I have managed to tame the rebel...the wildchild and carefree streak. I have put that temper on a short leash.

But does that mean I have mastered my emotions?
I don't think so. Over and over again, the psychometric tests I take reveal that that part of me is something that I can only hide, but never remove completely. I know I appear to be compliant, meek, and mild.

So will the real me stand up?
I don't really know...for the two paradoxical sides of me are one and the same...and that is what some of you are learning about me....

It has been a long time since I let people into seeing me for who I really am...for in the past, I did not want the illusion to be spoiled.

But this is me...the one who writes...with the Voice...tells me who I really am.
And I am enjoying it.

Do slowly the private self is coming out again...and you know what? It's not so bad.
So join me on my journey to find myself again...