Similar, yet so different....

Today marked the begining of the new academic calendar.
I got to meet up with some familiar faces, and at the same time, held my first lesson with those whom I have never thought before.

The  impending release of the O'level results are not too far off.  Rumours are rampant about them being released some time next week.  I dare not speculate.  So far, MOE has not given the schools any official confirmation.
It is hard to think of how the kids would fare.

I guess last year's results shook me to the core.  For never before, through the years I have been leading my team, has the results dropped so drastically than that of the 08 group.  Failure can really rob one of self-confidence and self-worth.  For while most of the time my charges have been able to pull themselves just above the expected MSG...the impact of the drop was just short of a sledgehammer being slammed onto my head.

So like the kids, I quake in anticipation of what is to come.
And my worry now...is whether I am still worthy of being the enthrusted with the responsibility of guiding the current first class in schools this year...Not one, but two different exams...The O's and the N' levels.

I felt so proud of my 4N1 today...all that hard work to 'train' them fell into place.
hahah...maybe it was just the first day...but the set expectations have been made known...and yes, cruel me set out their homework for them.  But yes, it is better to start early, but they must not fall short of the set target.

Then that is the other class.
It is always difficult and a challenge to 'pick up someone's baby'.
I am sure Serene has done an excellent job in teaching them...but I am worried about my own capabilities.
Will I be able to continue and produce the grades...?
Am I the right person to guide them through?

Dear God,
The time of reckoning draws very near.  You are now the only one I can turn to.
I accept Your Will....and what you have decided for me.
I pray that you will answer the prayers of my students...and that they will do well.
I pray that you show me the way...so that I may find the courage to start again.
Ameen