Locked Out...

The title has special significance for several reasons.

Firstly, I could not update the blog as I could not gain access to it.
You see, the email address I have been using all these while is 'owned' by the larger organisation I work for...and they have 'migrated' to a new 'cloud somehow...(dang if I can fully understand all this high-tech terminology)...In short, I got locked out cos the password is now sacredly associated with that user id.  Fortunately, donkey years ago, I had created a long-forgotten gmail account...and apparently, blogger said I could use that...but I had forgotten that user id and password as well...Anyway, it took me three days to figure out the steps I had to take to finally get back in here.

Locked out...physically.
This was what happened to the child I had mentioned in one of the earlier entries.
I do not want to elaborate...but his father's failure to settle debts found the family locked out and thrown out of their rental flat...
I pray that you will be able to find a place to stay...or else I know you will end up like the other stories of families living by the beach.

Which comes to my final point...
I truly understand why some parents get locked out...from their children' hearts.
While parents too, are humans, capable of mistakes,
their 'errors, faults, and flaws'
...can stem from arrogance, rigidity and insistence that 'I am always right'
...from their old-fashioned echoes of  "respect me cos I'm older, and as a parent, I ought to be obeyed'
...from unrealistic expectations
...or simply from, a failure to fully play the role of a parent...who should be loving, protective, forgiving and responsible.

I have seen and heard enough to know this...
And as a parent too, I have made mistakes too.
But I learn...and god knows, I truly try.
For the day I get locked out from my children' hearts...
will be the day, I lose mine.

Ya Allah,
guide me...

Ameen.