`In the midst of the excitment and chaos, something happened that made me question by priorities and values. We had been running around trying to manage the situation that had shaken our credibility.
Honestly, I had been fuming. It had taken quite a while for the individual to understand the repercussions of the actions done. At the back of my mind, I had to consciously tell myself the line of work that I am in...education...and the biggest part of that will be to guide, teach, care for and protect.
Then came the sms...Zarifah had sent a message that she was feeling unwell and had fainted in school. Her grandfather had picked her up and sent her to the doctor.
Immediately I called her up. I asked her why she had not asked the school to get in touch with me, or she herself call me. This was her reply.
"I told the school not to call you...because my Mama is very busy. I do not want to disturb you."
There and then...the tears fell. As I looked across the table, I saw someone else's child...that I had the responsibility to look after...no matter how much trouble that person was.
But what about my own?
What about my responsibility as a mother?
How had it come to a point where my kids think that others come first before them.
I am flawed...I have truly failed her.
I am so sorry Iffah...for letting you down.
This will bear weight on the decisions that I will make pretty soon.
And to Sky...
I tried...I tried...
To "AB"
No more stones...no more ripples
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