Saturday, November 14, 2009

DISC Prolifing & Revelations

I attended an interesting workshop on Friday. As a part of the effort to move forward, members of the SMC got ourselves profiled with the DISC tools.  By doing this, we got to gather a few insights on what kinds of personalities we are intrinsically, what we can become at work, and what drives or pressurise us at work.

I have done StrengthsQuest, and the 360 Feedback, and as far as I know, they both have revealed why I do the things I do, and what causes me to feel lacking in the things I do.  I recognise my plus points, and no matter how much I try, when I simply concentrate on overcoming my weaknesses, I end up being mediocre. Why? Simply because in the way things are run now, I am not able to leverage on my best aptitudes.  Positive attitude alone will not work, and in the long run, if there is no equity, I find myself in a rut.

Back to DISC.  What did it reveal?
Nothing new...that I am indeed a High S, High C....in short, the one who keeps peace at all costs to the point of being anal retentive! Hahahahaha.
I am the steady and compliant.  In the given grid, I fall under the Receptive category."These people are retiring and unobtrusive, and are reluctant to act unilaterally. They may be amiable in approach, or simply reserved and unresponsive, depending on their particular circumstances."

Is it really me? Has age mellowed me so much?
I used to think of myself as a firebrand; a tempest.  While growing up, I was gregarious and outgoing.
Mr Hyde has overwhelmed Dr.Jekyll.....Bruce Banner has tamed the Incredible Hulk.

Hence the stress factors.
While I used to get high out of socialising and meeting people,...I am on my way to becoming a recluse?
And that is why, I am getting stressed lately.  I used to think  I would easily work  with people and get along with them...by driving them forward.
Now?  My profile says..."Hey, let me do my work...alone, and I will do it well."
So what kind of leader am I now?....a pretty isolated and terribly closed-up one.

True...I am a planner. I got lots of ideas and want to do them well.
Haha...see how I colour coordinate my clothes and things at home.  I am loyal to a fault.
Changes upset me (haha...and I thought I was impulsive and flexible)
The truth out there shows...because I think and think and think and think...sometimes, I never get things done.

Well, I know that my strengths is that I am tactful and diplomatic.  Avoid confrontation at all costs...and sadly, it cost me ...for being assertive is not my forte.  I will need to work on this, and not be too willing to try to save the situation.  I need to learn to ask for help.  When confronted with a problem. I am the sponge that aborbs everything, and then when the burden is too much, I crumble under the weight, and ignore the problem altogether as if it does not exist.

Whoa...this is tough, but the insights give me certain clarity.
I am now certain, that my current position is not suitable for me....I am not the main player,,,but an excellent team player...Give me a supporting role, and I make sure, I will make sure I give the best of my knowledge and strength.

The combine profiles now lie with one person.  I hope she has the insight too...to do the reflection and see the bigger piece.
So please please understand...
I want to stay....I like being where I am, but not with what I do.
But I will be more effective when I am able to do the things I love.

Dear God,
I am learning to  accept what I am now, and how I have come to this stage.
Please help others to accept me too.
Ameen

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