One of THOSE days

Aw shucks...
I know I am on one of those downward cycles again.
I am not blaming anyone, but maybe...though I wish I am not able to absorb vibes so easily.
The radar tingles and my antennae is on high alert...and the colours I see are sober..

So this is for both me and you, and you and you....(I think you get it)

Some days, we all feel like it is better to hide under the sheets and not move at all.
Our expressions become dour, and for me, I find it so irritating when others are so chirpy.
That's when I want to 'enjoy' feeling downright miserable and sorry for myself.

Things will never always work the way I want to...all my good intentions are rejected, or misunderstood.
I think that people have let me down, and in return I let others down too.
Wounds fester, the spirit get broken, and scarily, it seems so easy to just give up and give in.

At times like this, the inner child voices a lot of negativity.
It is pessimistic and distrustful...

Who am I? What am I? Where am I going? How do I get there? Why? What for?
1 001 questions filled my already muddled head.

But today...is here.
Whatever was - is in the past.
The future is yet to be realised.

So two day, Dee...two days at most...
Though the prognosis is not good...claw up
Do not give up without a fight.

Dear God,
It is all in Your Hands.
Pasrah.
Ameen