Should I forget to remember you...

As I read through my previous entries, I know that May will be the time when I see a lot more 'down' mood...it is a time when I remember poignantly two very important people in my life - my two grandmothers. Their passings have left gaping holes which can never be filled.

I am not sure if I can find an English equivalent to the word 'rindu'...an aching longing for someone, or something which is not in your life at the moment. And that 'rindu' in my case, is utterly heart-wrenching...for both remarkable ladies, lived their last days, with very little memories of who and what they were.

Alzheimer's disease is something which we all need to know and understand...for once the most powerful organ in your body starts deteriorating, then it is not only your memory that will be erased...sometimes, the rest of your body also 'forgets'... for the brain is no longer able to send correct signals to the rest of the organs to carry on their functions.

We all tend to be forgetful...and as age catches on, we tend to be absent-minded and can't think straight. We should not laugh this off. If we allow our minds to stagnate and make excuses for not getting involved in some kind of mental exercise, we are really asking for trouble.

In a way, I am glad I am penning down my thoughts...that should I forget things, I hope that the physical evidence of the things I do, can help me jolt my brain.

But should I forget to remember you...
Do keep telling me who you are
and how important you have been in my life.
Remind me ... that I once knew you...and that you are special...

If I can't recall...
Take my hand, and place it in yours
So I can feel the warmth
and put it across to your heart
So I will know...you mean so much to me.

If I should forget your name,
Gently whisper it in my ear
Tell me again and again how dear you are
Wipe your tears and let mine flow
But never, for a moment, let me go.

Should I ever forget to remember
my only wish...
Is that...you'll remember me.
-Starlightmoondancer 2009 -