The Big Puzzle

Enough of self-pity.
I will claw back up...one step at a time.

Lets begin with something more positive today.
Each December, I make it a point to complete a puzzle. I have been doing so for many years.

You see, when I was younger, I was rather hot-tempered and impulsive (haha...still am)
I needed something to keep me focus and build patience.
It forced me to sit still and concentrate.
So I started putting together jigsaw puzzles, 500...right up to 1000 pieces.

Last year, I started on 2...
I got a bit more ambitious, and decided on a 2000 piece.
Unfortunately, unlike most of the puzzles that I have done, this time round, I got two things working against me.
Firstly, I am getting older, and thus...I really need good strong sunlight to make out the distinctions between the subtle colour changes.
Secondly, this is one puzzle that I am not able to start from the corners.  You see, they all come in one standard colour - brown.

But as I sat through the past weeks, bent over in concentration, I realise that the concentration, while frustrating at times, has been helpful.
You literally have to keep the big picture in mind...before you can figure out where the small pieces fit.
Secondly, you really need not sweat over the little things...somehow, once you have made the connection, things will fall into place.

I know that there is a bigger picture that I need to see in all that has been happening to me.
Thank you, God, for making me realise what I have been missing, and what I need to do.

I feel better...still challenged...but calmer.
In you I trust.
Ameen.