If things happen for a reason, I will need to find out why.

It is a challenging time personally...
and while I try not to whine or complain, I think I do need to find an outlet.
And it should not be food...I think I have stuffed myself too much with chocs and other junk.
That is not good.

Today was another shocker.
I came down from class,and checked my messages.
There were some from home with the lines "Call me back urgently"

I don't know how to describe the feeling as I trembled to punch the numbers to dial the person on the other line.  Yes, I think I steeled myself to receive the news.
Bad news: My 75-year old dad fell...into the drain
Thankful news: He only needed several stitches.
At that age, it is not good to fall.  So far, my dad is the latest...after mum, dad-in-law, and mum-in-law.
Between them, a broken wrist, a bad concussion and clotting, and a fractured hip.

Dad has been talking a lot lately about life...and death lately.
I know he has told me "to be prepared for the realities of life...and move on".  I know what he means, but I thank God that he is still alright today.

I believe in God's Will, and that in life, there is Qadha and Qadhar.
But I realise that the things that happen lately...have been the greatest challenges for me.

My girl's illness too...is taking its toll.  It has truly been challenging to stay strong...especially when my own fears overwhelm me.  But I need to stay calm, need to be the one who listens and get her out of her situation.

Psychosis...that's the name.
Sometimes, it seems as if my little girl is lost somewhere, and I must find her...to bring her home.

Ya Rab
I am praying for your constant guidance.
Do not forsake me.
Show me the way.
Ameen